Over the course of my short time on this Earth I have taken on many persona, worn many hats, incarnated into different professions, borne many burdens, and hidden behind many guises. I might rightly associate who I am with any of these masks. But in simplistic terms, my understanding of who I am now can be summed up in the same way as I would describe all of humanity. Through the understanding of the collective consciousness, we are all one, and thus “I am a drop of Divine Consciousness embodied in physical form abiding in time and space until the tangible vessel of my body expires.” A wave of love, light, and potential energy rippling through the ocean of life.
As a child, I was mommy’s little girl, shy, quiet, and sensitive. When my mother committed suicide I vividly remember the day I went back to high school just three days later, deciding I would not “be one of those kids who loses it or goes off the deep end due to a hardship.” I decided I would rise above it, make her proud, and continue to live the life she never got to experience fully. It was at that point my life drastically started to change, albeit with many detours, falls and challenges. At 14 years old, I didn’t realize the power and magnitude of that decision, but it definitely shifted the course of my life. Looking back it was the day I started to claim and own my innate power to heal, to question, to connect, and live the yoga (even though I'd never even taken a yoga class at the time). I might guess that unconsciously, it was Spirit or my true soul nature stepping in at a time when my family and I needed it most. There is very little I remember from that time, but that moment is still so vivid.
Ram Dass summed it up perfectly. "You are loved just for being who you are, just for existing. You don’t have to do anything to earn it. Your shortcomings, your lack of self-esteem, physical perfection, or social and economic success – none of that matters. No one can take this love away from you, and it will always be here."
I am love.